Mooji. Until just a few days ago, this was a man I had never heard of. A friend of mine passed on a video where Mooji discussed the binding nature of Sadhana, or daily spiritual practice. As a kundalini yoga teacher and student, I am well aware of sadhana. Well aware. Waking up at ungodly hours (although they are in fact known as the most godly) followed by half asleep yoga sets and painful 28-minute arm-melting asanas are the instinctual images that come to mind. However, what Mooji was referring to was a broader sense of sadhana that takes on many forms, including the entirety of spiritual practice.
Evening practice? Not. Morning Sadhana before sunrise.
In his view, sadhana is beneficial for only so long before it becomes an impediment. A waning fan of early morning sadhana, this intrigued me. He said that all spiritual practice and thought is a form of interference, which can withhold liberation. I defensively asked myself, “How could spiritual thought become an obstruction to spirituality?” I was starting to ignore his words, but something inside of me kept listening. He continued his explanation that spirituality is great for those who are without any other means or understanding of the metaphysical. It brings the newborn into a world of possibility. However, much like the training wheels on a bicycle, spiritual practice begins to hold one back from experiencing true freedom. Hearing this, I didn’t know what to think. So much of my life is about spiritual practice. So, for the time being I ignored his reflections, but surely enough, within a few days, I was unable to deny them.
I have always worried about my addiction to meditation and yoga. Much like any other addiction, when I do not make use of it, I feel its absence. For me, this translates into a daily practice. I have always known that all the spiritual things I do have never been the source of my happiness, clarity, or balance. At the end of the day, I am the one who decides how I experience my life. Meditation, yoga, and whatever else just grease the wheels. I am the one who steers.
So for the past few days, Mooji’s message of forgetting enlightenment and all the rules of spirituality have plagued me. There is comfort to my practice. I like setting the rules that control, and even dicate, my life. However, at what point do these rules limit the possibilities of experience? If I have to meditate 2 hours a day, teach class, listen to mantras, and send countless blessings across the universe just to have a normal day what am I really gaining, besides more practice? Even the word practice assumes that you are not that which you want to become. And spiritual practice continually tells us that we are not yet enlightened, that we must spend x amount of time and effort to attain realization, and that this is all a gradual process. As I start to look at it different, it seems like just another system of control. I needed it in the beginning, but do I need it now? Is it holding me back? What if we can all be enlightened right now, with one true thought?
Just one thought, like a key to a lock. Once open, the humor of it shines through.
This is my dilemma. Venturing into the unknown without my training wheels is a bit scary. What if everything collapses and I find myself worse off than where I was? What if I become less conscious and succumb to ignorance? What if all my fears are just an illusion that keeps me practicing my practices? What if enlightenment is simply realizing that we are perfect; have always been, always will be, and can never not be perfect. Even when we are imperfect, we are perfect, for we are not our sentient bodies, which includes the mind. All judgment arises from thought and all thought is not our true Self. Our identity as universal is that which exists behind our thought. This identity is already complete, enlightened and perfect. Understanding this is the only true spirituality that can exist. It is not a practice, but a law.
I mean how wrong could he be? Look how happy he is! =)
We are already enlightened, we only choose to believe we are not. And we create the boundaries, pace, and limits of our growth through our spiritual practice and intentions. At what point must we move past these barriers and experience true liberation, the freedom from our own suppression?
This is where I am. What will come next, I do not know, but one thing I have come to understand in my life is that once the seeds of awareness are planted, there is no turning back. And truthfully, I wouldn’t mind freeing up 3 hours of my day.
Enlightened is all we can ever be.