As an avid Kundalini Yoga practitioner and teacher in training, part of our preparation consists of long weekends dedicated to nothing else but yoga. From 4am sadhana to closing meditations, we as students participate in communal spiritual education. Along with this learning comes deep exploration. And so it was that tonight I explored the depths of the universe and left my body.
The first sensation was that of a vacuum. My entire existence was swiftly sucked out of my body. A deep pressure was instantaneously released and I could feel the the soul-less cavity of my body, right under the sternum, give way to the deliverance of me. Suddenly I found myself floating at unconceivable heights, an elevation indescribable by any modern system of mensuration. I had risen to the ethereal realm.
A few breathless moments passed before I realized there was no need to breathe. I was able to choose whether I wanted to feel the sensation of breath or not. I found it much more pleasant experiencing the existence up above. I say up above because literally my vantage point came from great heights. Although I could not visibly see my body, I understood where it was in relation to my existence. I was simultaneously aware of both my body and myself.
There was no fear. Only a great sensation of liberation and freedom. I was soaring through endless space, yet I was also the space being soared through. With this freedom came not one instant of apprehension of not coming back, not making the return flight home. I felt an undeniable chord-like connection joining me to my body. It was obvious that I was not leaving my body for the last time.
I was a kite effortlessly exploring the airs of the ethers. And I was not alone. The penetrating vibrations of the meditational gong – being played by one of our teachers – synchronically danced across the infinite horizon. Cascading tiles of gold curved around me in endless helixes as they formed in accordance to the birthing sound currents. The sound of the gong changed from exterior to inclusive. There was no distinction between the gong and myself. We were merged into completion and existed as one, yet were experiencing each other in a very tangible way. As I watched the forming ripples physically manifest the sounds of the gong, I was also watching myself.
Unlike a drug-induced high, this feeling was solid. It could not be ruined in any way. There were moments of fleeting mental chatter that in any other transcendent situation – drug induced or otherwise – would have completely grounded my ascension. Yet during this experience, the expressions of the ego were accepted and surpassed, as if carelessly blown in and out by the wind. It was only after the disappearance of the deep vibrations of the gong that I felt the return to my body.
Slowly and without struggle, I came back to my body. I entered somewhere between the heart center and the crown of my head. I am still unsure of the details. Frankly, I was too consumed by the experience of divinity. I was not the least bit concerned with the details of returning to earth.
Once completely in my body, a previous intuitional feeling was concretely confirmed: something had changed. Still the details escape me, but it was beyond any measure of doubt that during my vacuum-like extraction to the ethers, something aside from myself had left my body. Inside my chest an immense feeling of weightlessness was observed. My breath was much fuller and cleaner. The clarity of this space was very apparent and is still even now. Something else was extracted, something heavy and dense. Something I am glad to be rid of.
When I finally came back to an existence resembling full consciousness, I was unsure of a lot. My legs seemed to lag behind my intentions. I had trouble collecting my belongings. After I took a few frightful steps, I was in utter confusion as to where I was stepping. Any attempt at conversation was baffled and I am positive the look on my face was priceless. Picture space cadet meets modern day ’69 hippie. It took me a glass of cold water, a walk around the block and a good 45 minutes to feel grounded enough to drive home.
Once I got my earth legs back and driving, I was in an awesome state of satisfaction. Whatever happened to me felt amazing and left me with a lasting and exceptional calmness. I am very excited for I still have much to experience. I am hardly halfway through my teacher’s training and only at the beginning of my lifelong spiritual journey. I am very thankful that tonight I could experience such profundity and bliss and I am very glad to write that tonight was the first night I left my body.